Dad

Hi, it's been a while,
I'm sorry, I've just been...
You know.

If you know then why do I tell you?
This happens so much,
I wish I remembered better.
How can I forget?

I feel worse because I'm your son,
I feel worse because I should know,
I feel worse because I should trust you by now,
I feel worse...

Though I always say the same thing,
I try and mean it more every time,
You always say the same thing,
It means more every time.

Maybe that's why you keep saying it,
The same every time,
Never with words,
But with your heart and mine.
Their beat feels the same.

Maybe you see some of you in me,
I wonder if that scares you,
I wonder if you always knew you'd make it,
Will I?

You're always there,
You're always here,
I'm always here,
Why is it hard to talk?

Am I afraid you won't respond?
Or more afraid you will?
I think we'd laugh more than anything if you were here,
That part of me is from you.

Anyways Dad,
Thank you for You,
Thank you for Him,
Thank you for me.
Goodnight.